Memoirs of an Ex-Jew

My name is Rashid and I want to start off by saying that I do not believe that all Jewish people are bad; I am NOT a self -hating Jew. I hate deception and lies, and I seek the truth wherever it may lie….I believe that like most of the human race, Jews have been deceived, and once you realize that you are in a prison of illusion, the victim mentality is useless: Many hands make LIGHT work.

I think of the structure of a nation or people like a quilt or flag, and I am referring only to those evil threads.

According to Jewish religious law, a child is not Jewish if the child’s mother is not Jewish. (Deuteronomy 7:1-5, Leviticus 24:10.) My sister who was adopted also, had a gentile father, and a Jewish mother…she is Jewish. Whereas I was not, technically…one of the tribe because my birth mother was Gentile and my father Jewish.

My sister and I were fortunate to have been adopted by a loving man and woman. My parents loved me and I was probably a handful for them. I dedicate this article to their loving memory.

So I guess I was a half-Jew…but I wondered what in the world was a Jew, and why were they kicked out of practically every country..


The process of indoctrination began early on: I was told that there were Jews and non-Jews. There was a certain smugness and supremacist attitude delivered with remarks about how great this Jewish doctor or lawyer was, or some new wonder drug from the Israel, or how mighty the Israeli military (I D F) was.

The synagogues were stuffy and smelled musty ..there was a 1940’s era loudspeaker in the foyer; the drone of the cantor reciting Hebrew prayers in a deep booming voice.

I remember the long services. Even as 10 yr-old the hawking of Israeli bonds seemed inappropriate in a House of Worship.

My sister and I started going to Hebrew School in mid grade-school years, and I hated it. Separation from the rest of my non-Jewish classmates, to go on to yet another school seemed ridiculous. To this day, I can read Hebrew, but can translate very little. As I got older, I tried to interact and befriend Jewish kids. I even went to summer camp. I was member of Young Judea -a Zionist Youth group. When I was a kid, I thought that Zionism was just an innocent idea that all Jewish people should migrate to Israel.

There were many ‘ Jews’ who were not religious at all. Some were atheists, some were Chasidim–men so “ultra-religious” and focused on ‘cleaving to God ‘, yet the same who still will not shake my hand.


In my early 20’s I worked for several years in company run by a Jewish family, where I found myself being quickly promoted , and told that “they had big plans in store for me’ .

I was aware of the anger and jealousy of my co-workers and it made me uncomfortable.

Finally the “big plans” for my future were revealed by the boss. I would be given a new position with a huge raise, my own company car. There was one stipulation however…I had to falsify reports, that would benefit the company financially, and if anything happened to me, I would be taken care of.

In the shock of that moment , as I was bedazzled with the offer, I sold my soul for a bag of silver and nice set of wheels. I took the job and did it for a few weeks.

Long story short- my ‘conscience’ wouldn’t allow me to do this type of ‘work’, I had a some kind of a nervous breakdown and experienced hellish nightmares, and decided I had to quit.

Not long after leaving, the company was indicted under Federal charges. I am convinced that had I stayed on, I would have been the “fall guy”.


What seemed absent in my “religion ” was a sense of ‘ love thy neighbor as thyself’. I gravitated to my Christian friends, and saw the world through their eyes.
Because of my appearance I was able to blend and in and listen to the thoughts and opinions of non-Jews who spoke openly of Israel and the Jews.”

One evening, I was working washing dishes, and I was talking my favorite subject, conspiracy, ontology, theology. My coworker said that if I really want to read the original book of Conspiracy, I needed to take a look at the KJV Bible.

He said that if I kept reading the Bible, not only would I begin to understand it; but it would CHANGE my perception so that not only would the words become clear but I would understand the blueprint for the ongoing War between Good and Evil.

This Christian was different from the ‘bible-thumping ‘ redneck stereotype that I held. He offered to pray with me and show me how to pray. His eyes were clear and I felt genuine compassion emanating from him.

No Jew had offered to pray for my soul to be saved. I didn’t understand this freely giving of oneself, and It was hard for me to trust. I told him that I was moved by his concern, and we did pray together.

I prayed the ‘sinner’s prayer’ and prayed for the willingness to let the spirit of the Holy Father make me an instrument of his will and for His will be done, not my own. This was a hard intellectual concept for me to grasp. I read the prayer of St . Francis,,and the words of the prayer served to clear up any doubt that I was on the right path.

In a nutshell, the simplicity of the message was revealed:

“For it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life”
(from the Prayer of St. Francis)

I consider myself a follower of Jesus although I do not belong to any church. My wife is coming around now it seems and goes to church with me. However. she ‘s pretty clearly set against my talk of ‘ conspiracies’, even as Western culture collapses around us in real-time.

Maybe its not collapsing …its just a whole lot of people catching onto the hoax. I believe that public perception is changing approaching critical mass,and eventually this Baby-lon(don) System will collapse under the weight its own corrupt design.


“Thou shalt not avenge, nor bear any grudge against the children of thy people, but thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself: I am the LORD. Leviticus 19:18 (King James Version)

This was the clincher for me and it its at the root of why I choose to repudiate Judaism. In my opinion the Jewish version of the golden rule “Thou Shalt Love Thy Neighbor as Thyself ” extended only to Jews.

Compare that to:

Then one of them, which was a lawyer, asked him a question, tempting him, and saying, Master, which is the great commandment in the law?
Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.
This is the first and great commandment.
And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.
On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets. –Matthew 22:35

It’s time for Jews to join the family of nations and stop the SHELL games….


Rashid Anis is the pen name of the writer, who is 46